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    April 28

    2nd stop: 我相信. I believe

     
    不知道在高兴什么,你的笑容
    有时候也宁可,当作你为我加油
     - 我相信. I believe -
     
    她与他不约而同的在同一天决定离开这个喧哗的城市。
    他已经想好要去的地方; 多年来,他都是一直工作,为理想奋斗,所以他累了,想要休息。
    她已经完成她在这个城市的责任; 接受了去许多白玫瑰; 心里还没有决定要去哪里, 只是心里依然想去东京铁塔看看。
    也许,你也希望可以离开这个拥挤又寂寞的都市,不是吗?
     
     

    First stop: 机场也会寂寞

      
    她的世界里,很有满足感,一直在帮分开的人相聚。
    他的世界里,也很有满足感,一直在帮迷失的人重新找到梦想。
    它感受到她和她的内心世界,每一天也都在感受每一位搭客的心情,
    它,也累了, 他感觉好寂寞,她坚持相信寂寞也是美好的。
    开始感觉不到以往的兴奋,也放下对生存的奋斗,纵然以最温暖的笑容去迎接陆续进出的程客;甲乙丙丁
    又有谁体会它冰冷,孤寂的内心?
     
     
     
     
    希望有人可以聆听它
    希望有一天 他会打一通电话给她
    每一天 也想打一通电话给他
    却在等, 她也继续在等。。。
    有些人就是这样等上了一辈子, 无法再遇上
    你呢,等到了吗?
    April 26

    一個好爸爸: A Treat for Shumei; a forgotten soul

    今天,終於又和淑梅見面,我請她看電影。她已經康復了,我很開心! 我們看了古天樂主演的<一個好爸爸>。 

    Interestingly, I thought it was a comedy (well, it is, there were plenty of scenes that made me laugh, even as I am feeling so Sad these days). It is more than a comedy. I cried, a few times throughout the movie, because it touches my heart and soul. Louis Khoo's acting is so good that I can't think of another actor to replace him in this show. In Summary, he is a gangster in the film, but ever since a one-night stand with Renee Lau, which led him to eventually marry her (against his wishes), because she is pregnant (but he really loves her too). And as the story unfolds, more depth into his soul and heart is being revealed to us as he tries to be a good father simply because she has touched him to change his lifestyle for her happiness. He does not want his daughter, Xi-er (Happiness) to know he is a gangster and thrives as a gang leader in the Dark side of society, and with the growing love for her, he compels to change himself, to the extent of giving up his illegal business to run a Tuition Centre (well, basically, it is very hard for him to quit his dark activities and he began to lead a double life, pretending to be a legal business man yet running underground businesses....).

    I love the part when he went to the Tatoo shop to overwrite the Tiger tatoo on his chest that his 5 year old daughter cries upon looking at it one day at a beach outing. It shows how much love can change someone..... And another touching part is he gave up his own relationship with 'GUAN GONG' (well, all Secret societies worship GUAN YU- LOYALTY), to become a Catholic just so that his daughter and wife are happy. It was a funny yet warm scene. I like the way Director Sylvia Chang directed and incorporated different life meanings into this seemingly meaningless atypical movie at first sight. In greater depth, this is a great movie, displaying the meaning of life across various angles. Secret societies; always featured in Hong Kong movies, but this one helped me understand and in fact admire the kind of loyalty secret societies members have for one another. The perseverence and strong-willedness of each member inspired me greatly actually...... Faith;

    Sylvia Chang Ai Chia is one of the few whom always dare to make an open statement on God in her movies. Really, prayers really can change someone's life, and this is what she wishes to 'preach' in this movie and of course, the ultimate theme of LOVE CHANGES EVERYTHING.

    Thank God, for today, for a special friend like Shumei. She is a very very forgotten soul in this world; it takes a lot to be her friend, but it takes very little to make her happy. A treat of hotdog and ice tea and a cute purse from Precious Moments made her day; I feel so happy today because I know that I have touched her life today. I will never forget how I told God I will love her for as long as I live, simply because I shed tears for her before, being helpless to change her, help her move on to a normal life.....until one day, it dawn upon me that she is the way she is, she has a mental hiccup, and she just needs love, plain love. And God has put me in her life NOT to heal her, but to LOVE her, simple, pure love...... So, I thank her for giving me a chance to love her. She will never love me back the way I hope she can, being a soul-mate or a friend who can relate or listen to me, but I will love her for who she is.... because she loved me for who I am.

    I miss HER, again, after watching this movie......I will keep walking forward and continue to convert my sad feelings towards her, him into beautiful strengths to touch others.

    Thank you; you are one of my best friends in this life:)

    You're always in my prayers...

    Beautiful 2007 spent with HER

     Another week has gone by. 2 months with a bigger scope at L, and aimless fighting.
     
    Aimless? Hmm, I do not know or believe if MSF or Oxfam or Orbis will take me in when I am 35. I told all my prospective employers during my last job search that I am looking for a job that allows me to go to work in MSF.
    There is only 1 brand that I would like to market, with all my heart; and that was: Humanity.
     
    Now, I am losing sight of the possibilities, not because I do not have faith, but I am a woman, a human being, and after endless attempts to promote my skills, to convince them that I can do the job, I may not know Raisers' Edge, but I know where and how to find donors and turn them into regular donors. I am confident that every single donor that passes through me will be touched....
     
    I have done it before at SAC; just pure magic, pure passion transformed 1 skeptical prospective donor to convince his 2 other friends to join in as well. The satisfaction was huge. No one asked me to do beyond, I merely wanted to do so because I believe in the pure power of magic.
     
    Beautiful 2007 was spent with HER. Every daily experience, encounter with every student, every staff, and him lives strongly in my heart. No one knows how deep the experience could be, no one knows how many tears I shed for her. him. them.
     
    I woke up daily missing her, missing him, and he.
     
    I wish to explain why; it is simply HOME. I felt like an orphan fighting endlessly headlessly for my dreams since I started working in 2002, and I was very brave to go forward to pursue what I believed in. God was with me, and no one else.
    (I had a hard time explaining why I went to work with Epilepsy Care Group; it was not the most cheerful place, epileptic people were struggling to be accepted into society, and I felt great being there, because I could relate to them; I felt unbelonged, unaccepted most of the time in my living days).
     
    SHE is an interesting school that thrives on passion and for someone like me to bump into her, it is not coincidence, it is Fate. I like the way Fate arranged for me to experience the best there, yet left feeling the most weak.
    I have to keep reminding myself that without her.him.he, I will not be able to understand Humanity's humaneness or Humans' humanity.
     
    Humanity, a brand that I wanted to promote all my life; why?
     Because HE created me to be so, and I slipped, and he appeared to hold me when I wanted to let go of this dream that I held on to all my life.
     
    It was the only reason to live on; to promote humanity; I read tons of World War stories as a child, and Anne Frank touched me so much that I fell in love with her. I still want to read her words again.
     
    And I am slowly to believe that one day, my words can bring hope to those who are bereaved and most weak....
     
    From Beautiful Solitude, I emerged to be Beautiful Human.
    I am , just a Human being, that's why I cry, still cry over the best part of life that I had, and gave it up myself.
     
    我只不过是一个孩子.....
     
    想念 HER , 你们 要去 看看 哦:)  @ Paradiz Centre, 04-01
     
    April 21

    地下铁: I miss HER very much

     
    总在跌跌幢幢之后才仿佛明白,很多事情是不能强求的 - Jimmy Sound of Colors
     
    20 April 2008, 我还是独自在CityHall忍不住哭了一个小时,望着夕阳西下的天空,心中那份孤寂与彷徨让我无法振作.
    眼泪, 还是陪我度过了周末.
     
    Will I able to recover my faith in life and friendships?
    April 20

    《感恩录〉

     
    想感谢许多人在生命中的支持与鼓励:
    1。父母, 哥, 妹
    2。几米的绘画
    3。Snih的绘画明信卡
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    4。朋友。。。。
    秀忆表妹,Weilin, Carol Sim, Anna, Kathy, Patsy, Joyce Seah, Damien, Diana, Liqin, Ziyun, Shumei, Jared, Michael, Yvette, Tian, Tianfang, Zhengyang, Anita, Parames, Lihuang,Lijun, Peiyi, Weiping, Geraldine, Surianah, Zul, Novi, ShihYun, Patrick,诗敏,宝玲,KENT
    最真心的有: 佩,绍达,圣杰,爱丽, SiewKhim,Jon,James,Juliana,国升
    那位似朋友不是朋友的他,但是,我觉得他 是朋友,也曾经真心的待我是朋友...
    还有很多很多在岁月留下回忆的朋友.天使
    5。 感谢主给我爱这个世界的机会
    曾经有一份真诚的爱摆在我的面前,但是我没有珍惜,等到失去的时候才后悔莫及,尘世间最痛苦的事莫过于此。如果上天可以给我个机会再来一次的话,会对这个世界说我爱它,如果非要在这份爱加上一个期限,我希望是一万年。。。。
     
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    我会爱这个世界的,不管有时多沮丧,世界是美好的..只因为有你在!
    (请容忍我对世界失望的时候.)

    十年之后 我依然爱你….

     
    为何让你走?
    每个人的生命里,应该都会有一些不舍得?
     
     
    喜欢向命运对抗的我
    始终 也败给了命运
    曾经 我有着一段刻骨铭心
    如今 它离我好远好远
    剩下的 也只是一个人的悲伤,思念
    岁月如歌 十年之后
    我依然爱你.
     
     
     
     
    爱我好吗?

    我会一直想念HER, Beautiful Warrior

     
    想念的歌。。。
    想说的,一直留在心里赶不走的痛,也只是想念
    我会一直想念
    想念着那一年的美丽。。。
     
    是否曾经后悔过
    那时候负气说走 就走
    是否偶尔想过我
    所以埋怨我没打听你的下落
    逞强常常让人无法负荷
    躲起来边哭边说I MISS YOU
    还舍不得把你封锁
    星光闪烁如何拥有
    站在远方才看见星空的轮廓
    虽然有时候会寂寞
    墙上时钟停格
    你说放开手才会快乐
    用悲伤的脉搏写成想念你的歌
    该怎麽才能让你懂呢
    谁对谁错已经模糊了忘记了
    我们都处理得有点笨拙
    毕竟从来没有像这一次如此爱过
    想念常让我无法负荷
    常常只有一个念头I MISS YOU
    我的爱情从来没有死掉过
    星光闪烁如何拥有
    站在远方才看见星空的轮廓
    虽然有时候会寂寞
    墙上时钟停格
    你说放开手才会快乐
    用悲伤的脉搏写成想念你的歌
     
     
     
     
    这一首歌,献给至今让我最难忘与给我最多快乐的一份工作
    还有那一组队员...
     
     
     
    美丽的回忆,总只是和我擦肩而过,我还会有机会跟你碰面吗?。。
     

    爱, 是无私的

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    生命)爱,
    是无私的
    是无条件的付出
     

    我希望永远被你们爱护着

     
    说也奇怪,当我把日记写出来后,把这些一路走来的感受重新读一遍,
    心情也好转了很多,信心也渐渐找回
    也发现,其实我还是可以开朗的哦,因为我还是会继续爱 爱着每一个身边的人,爱着新的理想但回想起,这一段对生命的沮丧与的岁月是值得的,也让我学会了
    人世间的错中复杂
    突然,我真得懂了
    我想睡了
     
    最初的梦想,已在我身边,鼓励我继续前进我还是拥有小王子的一颗心J
    小王子(THE LITTLE PRINCE),你读了吗?

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    我的梦想,其实很简单;,也希望能永远爱护你们
     
    写这篇日记,帮我度过了3个月的失眠..

    付出爱,还是比较幸福

     
    你们都找到了吗? 向左走 向右走。。我好乱
    girl2
    原来,我一直追求的只是生命的一小部分 (我忽略了爱,亲情,友情。。。)
    曾经,我不顾一切为着单纯的梦想- 为世界尽一分力,                          毕业后就不切实际投入福利团体工作
    (我用了三个月来怀疑自己是否走对了路???)
    5年来,我没有所谓的名利,成就
    在金钱上的回报,几乎是零
    花红只拿了两次.大约$3500吧
    (我用了三个月来评估自己的价值。。。我是否真得一文不值?)
     
    金钱的诱惑,很有吸引力
    我,也会被它困扰..尤其在近一年里
    (却发现,物质上的享受虽提高了-我还到处去看世界
    但是回来后还是一个人,蛮寂寞的。。。
    原来,我还是喜欢把仅有的分享给周围的人
    我很喜欢送礼物给别人, 相识的,不认识的,都送。。。
    付出爱,还是比较幸福
    虽然,我也渴望被爱的感觉。。。
    然而,单纯的梦想渐渐远离我的心
    因为,我终于明白若要为世界尽一分力
    我必须把声量调高 才可以为贫苦的人,受欺压的人说话
     
    我要努力赚钱,提升经验,努力练好嗓子,才可以有能力实现梦想
    心虽然动摇了,但梦想还是要为世界做一件事
    只因 我脑筋有一点问题。。。我相信 (王力宏也相信阿)
    可以让世界变更美好
    LOVE ALWAYS WINS

    没有任何回音。。。要再等吗?

     
    . .
    3个月来的寻寻觅觅。。。。。我无意也还是伤害了一些人(以下的。。。)
    原谅我,可以吗?我也只是像一个断了翅膀的天使..工作始终给我们一个符号,一个身份
    我谁也不是了。。。但是因此,我能够爱着什么也没有的慧卿。。。。
    有位朋友说过,我也曾经是许多人的天使...
     
    是否我也曾是你的天使?
     
     
    Job Search History (12月2007至2月2008)
    National Volunteer & Philanthropy Centre- 我不想连累那组人。。。他们是好人...我亲自送了道歉卡给 Mrs Tan Chee Koon.
    Paprika- 我无心,这时心情乱透了。。。刚从香港回来失败了第3次。。。我可以不活了吗?
    Yuan Associates- 他们很陌生,请我因为很心急
    National Arts Council- 不想半年后又失业
    Toffees & Devs Communications $300Pay Decrement,真的要吗?
    Oasis Interactive (Yellow Brick Road)-
    No。。。我不要做SALES。。。我其实很懂要什么。。。但为什么过程总是是这么难?我知道未来在那里,却不知道如何到达终点,我只能一个人一直哭。。。。尝试问人,却没有人可以指引我到达目的地...还是得独自追求梦想
    Sweetest Moments 我不要再一个人工作!!!.
    Maxias Pte Ltd 但还是决定放弃,因为做促销不是我。。。那只好继续等,再寻过。。。
    突然,终于,我知道自己不要什么了………….有位好友被车撞倒了,目前在医院,不知会多久才能康复。。。她,一直都鼓励我要继续追求我本来的梦想。。。请为她祈祷,丽勤...
    ,突然想醒了.不再低沉,虽然还会哭,但已经决定往曾经追求的理想继续前进,我深信,有那么一日,我会在机场跟你道别……………到时,要送我白玫瑰花哦!!!这时,我刚寄了求职信给NFK。。。决定从哪里心痛,就从那里重新站起来
    你一定要来送我哦! 请你一定要来,可以吗?
     
    为什么就是没有接到LASALLE的消息?我静静的哭泣,是因为我想继续在学校工作,
    却没有任何回音。。。要再等吗?

    松开手 是最美好的拥有

     
    未知的以后〉
    越过雾 越过风 有过眼泪和感动
    一开始祝福什么 只有未知的以后
    雨或晴 都匆匆 只能学习着把握
    再美的春夏秋冬 不能为谁而停留
     
    很想牽着你的手 塗灰想要的天空
    生命餘辉而空洞 有你陪着能看懂
    五彩繁华的世界 遨遊难圆的沙丘
    你困在黑白之中 眼里只会有彩虹
    风儿啊 隨着他 我們可能明白嗎
    松开手 是最美好的拥有
     
     

    boy3

    面对还不知去向的未来
    心里还是恐慌

    但是 我知道在远方
    有她的祝福 有它的祈祷 有他的支持
    我一定可以过得更精彩!
    他,她,它
    主啊! 你永远指引着我
    尽管前途多渺茫 路途多艰辛
    你会一直陪伴着我
    直到永远。。。。。

    希望同行下去的人 最后还是你

     
    一个人走- 光良+卫兰
    天与地没有你踪迹 想你的感觉却近在咫尺
    独自走在陌生国度时 始终不能自控想起了你
    这地方风景太美丽 不可以分享有什麽意义
    独来独去只想找到自己 而眞实的自己就是不能失去你

    我一个人走 天涯海角里继续走
    你会否明白我感受 不是要自由
    只要挽你的手
    相信相爱多年后你为我守候
    你没有停留 何谓长厢斯守
    你好吗 一路上没有你在左右
    面对现实一无所有 可惜当天放开你的手
    再不能回头

    我一个人走 天涯海角里继续走
    你会否明白我感受 不是要自由
    只要挽你的手
    知道一直往前走永远在我手
    你没为我停留
    何谓长厢斯守(跟我长厢斯守)
    还记得
    你我在那天怎样邂逅(我在左右)
    曾经拥有天长地久
    如果当天我们不放手能不能回头

    天与地没有你消息 走多少公里才能忘记你
    独来独去始终找不到你
    希望同行下去的人 最后还是你
     
    你今天是一个人走着,还是有天使在你身边?
    此刻,默默怀念这一位朋友,总是在夜深时想起他
    眼泪,也不禁会随着深刻的思念而流下
    3个月的追念,想说得也只是以下的几句
    天与地没有你消息
    走多少公里才能忘记你
    独来独去始终找不到你
    希望同行下去的人
    最后还是你
     
     

    boy2

    girl3

    如果非要在这份爱加上一个期限,我希望是一万年。。。。

     
    周星驰曾经在电影《西游记〉里说:
    曾经有一份真诚的爱摆在我的面前,但是我没有珍惜,等到失去的时候才后悔莫及,尘世间最痛苦的事莫过于此。如果上天可以给我个机会再来一次的话,我会对这个女孩说我爱她,如果非要在这份爱加上一个期限,我希望是一万年。。。。
    你是否在等待这一句话?不难说。。。我会说,若遇到

    对你不止感激敬礼

     
    瘦身男 。。。一部我很喜欢的电影,
    终生美丽。。。一首百听不厌的好歌,却是一首能让我反复流泪的歌
    你听过吗?
    塔尖仍旧记得这拥抱极美好
    爱有千斤重重过无涯的铁路
    我那手指再笨拙再粗肌肤也被你修补
    从前那一位永未能做到
    是你去唤醒我努力才能被爱慕
    但回头目睹你为我好自己不好
    我这幸运儿合着眼睛只得你沉重身影
    如果这记忆非爱情连天都不会太高兴
    莫非可终生美丽才值得勾勾手指发誓
    对你不止感激敬礼当你知己才是虚伪
    莫非多一分秀丽才值得分享我的一切
    给我自信给我地位这叫幸福不怕流逝
    任他们多漂亮未及你矜贵

    记忆无论再轻轻不过脉搏声
    靠你的手臂抱我人潮中畅泳
    我这幸运儿幸运到一转身找得到你为我打气
    如果可抱起这爱情连天都会替我高兴
    因有自信所以美丽使我自卑都放低
    在半空之中亲你不管身世
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    最后一次说:Arigato

     
    你今天在爱着什么吗?握紧吧!
    其实世界有好多人等着一份永远得不到的爱....难民,孤儿,寡妇,弱智者,老年人,住在精神病院着等等
    他们都很需要一份真挚的爱...
    我又有什么不足够的?
    从16岁开始,听着郑秀文的歌曲长大.当时她唱着,苦恋多悲哀,我听不懂
    Chotto 等等其实你心里有没有我和许志安一起合唱)...还不是很红
    一曲不拖不欠让她真的红了起来,我们都开始注意这个染红头发的
    我也从这时成为她的歌迷...
    最爱百分白感觉里的Sammi….旧项链在我记忆里不断响起,毕竟,我曾经天天唱着它(没有感情的唱...)
    舍不得你我唱来唱去都很乏味...只因没有经历过什么感情得失
    她的电影,我都有看...最深刻的是和黎明的爱你爱到杀死你,和刘德华的瘦身男...最后一次我们的主题曲...终身美丽
    我唱得快烂了...还是没感觉...不解
    奇怪的,最近却开始懂了...
    如果我们不再相见成为了现实中的一段插曲,在我稀薄的感情线上虽然有着交换温柔的时刻但我也还是落错车,把捡到的玻璃鞋遗失了...问我谈情说爱为何又是这样错我只能说去跳伞也许会有答案
    上一次流泪才刚刚在几天前,心血来潮有时会想讲爱你是我一生中理想
    因此也开始想去X派对,找一位理想对象,在亲友面前因为闪电结婚而一夜成名
    还在梦想自己会是神奇啊。。。爱的挽歌也只能在唉声叹气中唱出
    为何会放不低值得吗?不吗?
    还是那句,我们之间的默契让我终身美丽,回味无穷
    sammi2

    ????

     
    怎么会是空白的???

    我钟爱的...

     
    你为什么会爱.爱什么东西.什么人?我钟爱的...
    这个话题很闷,却好像写不完,绘画里,歌词,电影,书集里都是的踪迹.
    就让我带你进入我的感情世界...

    心动.心痛

     
    每个人都有心动 心痛的时候吧?
    所以音乐世界里 会有着不间断的情歌
    快乐的,甜蜜的,悲伤的,幸福的,
    都可以表达在歌词里面
    有些人一辈子都在寻找 寻找着生命里的真爱
    有些人却勇敢的为生命的精彩付出
    默默的 静静的 一个人
    守候着天使降临的那一天
    回家的那一天
    生命 是伟大的 是绚丽的
    生命 也是爱 只因造世者是
    girl5yk-sps55-j-02
    2007好多朋友结婚了 (收到至少7分请帖).替他们开心
    却有好多还在等待着令他们心动的那位
    人人都在等.为什么就没有人主动
    感叹着人世间的有缘无份..又不是拍电影.莫名其妙???
    朋友们, 若遇到, 就努力去争取吧
    人生也只有数几十年.错过了就不可能有第二次.