Am watching the TVB drama about the Abalone Family (soon, i'll be watching TVB dramas in cantonese?....)

 

Lam Feng 2-timed his girlfriend in this show, and reminded me of the way I handled my work life. I quit L without getting an approved work visa from the HK offer.

Some say I am stupid, some do not even understand why I give me the stable income and good job in a prestigious Arts school in Singapore!

 

My answer is: I do not want to 2-time L.

 

So I gambled, I told God that my conscience matters more and I just wana be faithful to the company, no matter where. My feelings for L started more than 3 years ago. Little did I know that after the 1 fulfilling year with HEr, I would be brought to L.

My feelings for 3dsense grew right from 1st day.

 

 

I miss her so much.

 

But, feelings cannot bring me to anywhere, and sometimes, others will not want to hear how I feel. As long as He knows, HE knows, she knows, it is enough.

 

Moving on, I like to declare I got my Work Visa! Tony(my future boss) emailed me that he has gotten my work visa and will be mailing to me!

(Shh....I am not that excited about the organisation but I am happy to win this deal....this job in Hong Kong seems to come by so easily....???why?)

 

I no longer share my personal thoughts or even who I am, as a person at work. Noone at L knows or anything about me. I am just Teri Ng who hardly eats lunch, who works late, who looks stressed with a lot of work (or troubles?) all the time......

 

(so many times I wish I can be myself.....)

 

I am looking forward to attend Elissa's wedding, have lunch farewell with the DAA and DSS gals.....whom I know I will miss working with. At work, we sometimes argue or am not happy with each other, but personal wise, I am glad God gave me a character that is sensitive to people's needs (or have I lost this?)

 

I love harmonious working relations, or rather, any kind of relations.

 

Having said this, I am so tired, because I cried endlessly again today.....because of something stuck in my heart - I will do it.

The way Jesus would have done.

 

LOVE, unconditonally, yeah:)